so moody n swallow an insult ,submit to humiliation

today~

when i wake up .

i really dun like to go 'qing ming' n pray at the nirvana moutain.

so i tell my mother i dun wan go .den just tell dad i was not feeling well.

den it's okay..

afternoon my mother was call me ...

n say on the way they go to nirvana..

was angry for something.

on tat time i call mother say i m going out later afternoon wit fren.

den close phone d.

my mother told me he ask my mother y din tell me go cut the hair.

say my hair like broom..

arrrrr!

just because my hair was cover my eye.

so he dun like n say like tat!

den evening i go swim wit mother.

back i go buy mc donald .

den reach home.

bro n sis n their partner at home.

father was going to drunk.

so i go hav my dinner lo.

keep the burger hav it when watching tv later.

den i start hav my dinner.

my bro start say......

i m not feeling well y stilll buy mc donald n eat.

he also know i din hav any sick .

he just dun like me din go pray also din go work!

after tat ..

he continue...

say i m useless in tis family.

dun knw help family or anything.

i m useless...

when the time my heart was get hurted...

i just waiting my college intake only lo~

n say my hair really not nice dun wan go cut !!!

den i say i like my hair i dun wan cut ar...how?

he say father say de thing i also dun wan listen de.

den i also say tat.

u go tattoo father also dun like de ar.

den u go tattoo..

1 arm finish tattoo change another arm..

n add n add n add!

he say father din speak out he dun like..

mother ady notice father dun like these ady.

just father quiet quiet only.

i really dun understand lo.

y every gor gor wit didi is friendly de.

y my gor was different.

alway only know quarrel wit me.

when i was children he already like tat.

i really dun understand!!

he alway speak out my thing to father or mother.

did i do tat for him??

he alway do tis n tat .

i just quiet n keep an eye.

y he alway like tat !

alway jelous me.

me ady become insane..!!n crazy!!

i dun wan got a gor alway quarrel it me.

dun wan a father alway sot sot 1..everytime get angry wit non-sense reason.

alway go drunk n till so late only go back.

but i just fine n swallow an insult ,submit to humiliation.

coz he is my gor n my father..

i hope they can stop n dun sot again..