Monday, April 5, 2010

so moody n swallow an insult ,submit to humiliation

today~
when i wake up .
i really dun like to go 'qing ming' n pray at the nirvana moutain.
so i tell my mother i dun wan go .den just tell dad i was not feeling well.
den it's okay..
afternoon my mother was call me ...
n say on the way they go to nirvana..
was angry for something.
on tat time i call mother say i m going out later afternoon wit fren.
den close phone d.
my mother told me he ask my mother y din tell me go cut the hair.
say my hair like broom..
arrrrr!
just because my hair was cover my eye.
so he dun like n say like tat!
den evening i go swim wit mother.
back i go buy mc donald .
den reach home.
bro n sis n their partner at home.
father was going to drunk.
so i go hav my dinner lo.
keep the burger hav it when watching tv later.
den i start hav my dinner.
my bro start say......
i m not feeling well y stilll buy mc donald n eat.
he also know i din hav any sick .
he just dun like me din go pray also din go work!
after tat ..
he continue...
say i m useless in tis family.
dun knw help family or anything.
i m useless...
when the time my heart was get hurted...
i just waiting my college intake only lo~
n say my hair really not nice dun wan go cut !!!
den i say i like my hair i dun wan cut ar...how?
he say father say de thing i also dun wan listen de.
den i also say tat.
u go tattoo father also dun like de ar.
den u go tattoo..
1 arm finish tattoo change another arm..
n add n add n add!
he say father din speak out he dun like..
mother ady notice father dun like these ady.
just father quiet quiet only.
i really dun understand lo.
y every gor gor wit didi is friendly de.
y my gor was different.
alway only know quarrel wit me.
when i was children he already like tat.
i really dun understand!!
he alway speak out my thing to father or mother.
did i do tat for him??
he alway do tis n tat .
i just quiet n keep an eye.
y he alway like tat !
alway jelous me.
me ady become insane..!!n crazy!!
i dun wan got a gor alway quarrel it me.
dun wan a father alway sot sot 1..everytime get angry wit non-sense reason.
alway go drunk n till so late only go back.
but i just fine n swallow an insult ,submit to humiliation.
coz he is my gor n my father..
i hope they can stop n dun sot again..

omg !!

04 APRIL 2010 10.00p.m
WTF...
today din go anywhere.
so having dinner wit father outside.
so i get ready wait father back from fishing n having dinner lo.
how i know father still go the same place.
haix..
it's okay.
can let stomach forget hungry will do.
about 8 something we reach the restoran.
we hav dinner wit father de fren.
father de fren wit his wife n his son n his son's gf.
WTF.
i really saw an alien infront of me.
y the lady who look like cheap n 'palia'
but i dun wan speak out la.
dun wan offend ppl lo.
10 mins ago.~
the meal not yet reach.
den when tat time she take out the cigarette n smoke.
walao .!
infront of her parent in-law smoking ==
dun knw respect her parent in-law de.
faint.~
after tat .
she cal me ' xiao didi, got go drunk ma?'
i say i did't....
so she say when free she bring me go..
walao..!
where she go oh!
how do i know she was work in pub.
den she say now she ady change be singer ...she so happy.
but we din feel any congratulation to her or wat.
n she say she was confidence to be singer coz she say got a litlle girl was 18 year old.
be singer there.
n she say she sing till so rude.
fast song dunno wat she sing.
if normal song she sing like recite..
wahaha..she so happy n so confidence to be singer.
i really cannot tahan her la.
but i still quiet n sit.
cant believe still got ppl has a very thick face..
dare to say like tat infront of ppl.
haiz..
she better go back n wash the face n stand infront of the mirror n see properly.
haix..
BEH TAHAN!