new born RYan

i should learn hw to plan my day..

how to complete my course..

how to learn go oversea study..

all of tis i should learn..

somemore i should knw i love hgmgsohsneawkojnloy.....^^

must , should

my teeth gum nt healthy cause bloody~

everything i giv u tat nt enough much...u should tell me..

the thing tat u hate i giv u..u should let me knw..

the way i treat u is wrong...u must show me...

if i care u nt enough ...u should warn me..

the love i giv is wrong...u must correct me...

if the pressure i had giving to u....u should let me knw...

everything tat wrong to u ...u should must inform to me..

let me knw , wat should n must do...

RYAN !!

understand ?

must & should..

should love $l%m$3^4ogfnejygf

must learn love $l5m3gjodghndsgteyg!!!!

My Lif3..

IM a ppl who hate lie..

IM a ppl hate who nt respect my choosing..

IM nt a ppl tat must follow wat u say..

IM a ppl who taking part of love so heavy..

IM a ppl who will follow wat i said..

IM a ppl who LOVE everything i LOVE..

IM Ryan LOVE Ryan MI...

RYAN LOVE xlmwopn3450xxngey^$^...

i will never change my HEART to u ...^$^

$$$$$$$

I cant lif3 without u~

muackz !!

love?

wat mean love?

love

our

visual

emotion??

everyone need love..

friend love, family love , lover love..

many ppl need love..

all love i have..

bt lover love hv bt i dunwan..

sry ..i knw u love me..bt i cant accept u ..

hope u understand la..

u keep wan me try to accept u..

bt sorry i cant ><

nt coz i dunwan accept u..

coz i dun hv feel wif u..sry ..

everyone need love..

so i need my love too..

BTW..

I LOVE U ..$^$^slm%345v0v%n*^gee$^$y^$..

haha..knw wat inside therE??

answer is MONEY ^^

i love u money ^^

hope money wil love me ^^

so i will get many money ..

i ady gila wif money ...xD

dun think so much..

watever u do..u think correct den just do it...

^^

surport surport myself ^^

下半生

那一年 共你车厢中遇见

遗留那锁匙 离你分开这两边

相信共你这遇见 牵动我心思

如若再见 只想看你一遍


这一年 共你相识中再遇见

还你那锁匙 路过秋天的雨天

想你还会似上次 开心走到我身边

离别再见 你看着我这年


下半生 跟她再遇见不会再相见

未改变 牵手的那天 紧抱才发现

我始终 始终爱过她 走过的从前

未讲再见 为何又离去我身边


下半生 多得有着你跟我爱一遍

未改变 深深盼那天 再续未了缘

我会想 想跟你抱近 亲吻你的脸

下一世都会再相见


从新的跟你爱一遍


那一年 共你开心走过路远

从前那心事 共你欣赏这尾端

跟你人海中遇见 牵手写过那些诗

原来爱你 这故事太相似



想跟你抱近 亲吻你的脸

从新的跟你爱一遍

nothing gonna change my love for u

If I had to live my life without you near me
The days would all be empty
The nights would seem so long
With you I see forever oh so clearly
I might have been in love before
But it never felt this strong

Our dreams are young
And we both know they'll take us
Where we want to go

(Chorus 1)
Hold me now
Touch me now
I don't want to live without you

(Chorus 2)
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought know by now how much I love you
One thing you can be sure of
I'll never ask for more than your love

(Chorus 3)
Nothing's gonna change my love for you
You ought know by now how much I love you
The world may change my whole life through
But nothing's gonna change my love for you

If the road ahead is not so easy,
Our love will lead the way for us
Like a guiding star
I'll be there for you if you should need me
You don't have to change a thing
I love you just the way you are
So come with me and share the view
I'll help you see forever too

sad nor..

i damn sad lo..

yesterday so hardworking do revision on acc for today quiz.

when enter lecturer explain some document statement..

aftertat 9.30 start quiz..

when i take the quiz paper..

damn shit!!

all i dunno..

some only i knw..

y i read de all din come out in the test.

n all i din read de..come out.

disapointed lo..

hw come like tat de... :-(

suan le..

take it as a lesson..tat din read properly..

next time i will read damn damn complete..den only go quiz..

after class at 10..

we go eat dimsum at uptown ^^

not bad..

den go around 11 go back campus lo..

reach campus.

we sit at lower flyer(main block)

discuss whr to go do assignment.

after tat..gt 1 fren is busy n hv to meet her fren at 1u alone..

so we just follow her lor.

coz after she meet her fren..she will walk alone at 1u..

dangerous ..

den we go thr book neway karaoke room..student price is rm8++ only..

BUT.!!!

2 person force to 1 tidbit..

if 3 person hv to take 2 tidbits.

4 person take 3 tidbits.

1 tidbit rm11 ..

why got ppl do business de..

tis nvm..

n somemore their service like SHIT!

no smile..n black face wif u..

walao..

we hv pay for the bill de lo..

look us like tat..around 5 we leave n go home d..

after tat..

7 .30 go jusco..

doing assignment at starbucks..^^

until 12 only reach home..

tired tired..

tat all for today ^^

tis is my frappuccinno caramel^^

stress

TOMOLO...

is account quiz..

i think i going to die..

not enough understand about these..

but i will read all lecturer note..n try my best to do it..

feel nervous n scare..coz i dun knw hw to do it..

so i should read preperly..

last mins...haix..

bt afternoon finish breakfast ady revision a little bit..

afterthat ,1 o clock..

we go kelvin's hse at sri hartamas..

den we continuos revision again..

den come back home..tk a rest..

actually i going to sleep..

suddenly mum come in my room..

den she say rainning cant go swimming..

so she ask me wan go change sis thing or nt?

coz i nth to do..

dunno y why slp also cant..be4 mum come in ady cant slp..

after go tat hair care shop ..change something..

go jusco n buy ink for printer..

so, we go supermarket n buy something..

finally i choose thing choose n choose..

total rm171.xx

omg..i buy a lot of thing..

bt nvm la..all is useable thing.

nt these useless thing..

den we leave jusco n go back makan dinner..

after dinner..i bath n do mask..^^

den going to start reading..bt i still ply facebook..

cant focus on book or lecturer note..

nw ady 12.22a.m..

dun hv much time ady..

better study n stop ply facebook..

haix...gambateh..

start college life

Long time din blogging ady..

when 26th/27th may 2010 i intake to help diploma in business.

ady 1 month i study thr..

i knw many fren..

they very nice..

friendly ^^

im happy intake wif them..

bt sad is ..

i hate acc..

bt 1st sem ady hv acc subject..

ish..

nvm la..

i try do the best ..

n mid term exam is coming soon..

i though mid-term & break ..is holiday..

hw i knw..it is nt..

is exam ..nt class bt gt exam...=.=

so cant plan go travel ady..sad sadx..

27/june/2010

today morning 9.30 ady wake up..

den go shower n go out wif mum..

we go chiropratic centre..coz mum get a invitation letter from them..

go hv jamuan together wif doing my mum de chiropratic..

so i makan thr..haha..mee rebus , nasi ayam , lemon chicken..haha

aftertat ..i go in see my mum lo..

den the doctor say try n check up my spine..

he say he saw when i take camera..

my shoulder look difference..

after check..

he say my spine a bit nt straight.

so he say maybe coz i alway sit n the back nt straight..

alway band down...

so he say try n do some scoliosis ..

nt so dangerous..nt to worry..

just starting..

after tat..we leave thr le...

den i forgot about tat..

n go lowyat trim my hair ...

wahaha..

coz long ady..

3.30 like tat we leave lowyat n go back home ..

on the way back.grandmum feel hungry.

so go old town makan..

5 like tat only reach home..kakax

new hair style ^^

so moody n swallow an insult ,submit to humiliation

today~

when i wake up .

i really dun like to go 'qing ming' n pray at the nirvana moutain.

so i tell my mother i dun wan go .den just tell dad i was not feeling well.

den it's okay..

afternoon my mother was call me ...

n say on the way they go to nirvana..

was angry for something.

on tat time i call mother say i m going out later afternoon wit fren.

den close phone d.

my mother told me he ask my mother y din tell me go cut the hair.

say my hair like broom..

arrrrr!

just because my hair was cover my eye.

so he dun like n say like tat!

den evening i go swim wit mother.

back i go buy mc donald .

den reach home.

bro n sis n their partner at home.

father was going to drunk.

so i go hav my dinner lo.

keep the burger hav it when watching tv later.

den i start hav my dinner.

my bro start say......

i m not feeling well y stilll buy mc donald n eat.

he also know i din hav any sick .

he just dun like me din go pray also din go work!

after tat ..

he continue...

say i m useless in tis family.

dun knw help family or anything.

i m useless...

when the time my heart was get hurted...

i just waiting my college intake only lo~

n say my hair really not nice dun wan go cut !!!

den i say i like my hair i dun wan cut ar...how?

he say father say de thing i also dun wan listen de.

den i also say tat.

u go tattoo father also dun like de ar.

den u go tattoo..

1 arm finish tattoo change another arm..

n add n add n add!

he say father din speak out he dun like..

mother ady notice father dun like these ady.

just father quiet quiet only.

i really dun understand lo.

y every gor gor wit didi is friendly de.

y my gor was different.

alway only know quarrel wit me.

when i was children he already like tat.

i really dun understand!!

he alway speak out my thing to father or mother.

did i do tat for him??

he alway do tis n tat .

i just quiet n keep an eye.

y he alway like tat !

alway jelous me.

me ady become insane..!!n crazy!!

i dun wan got a gor alway quarrel it me.

dun wan a father alway sot sot 1..everytime get angry wit non-sense reason.

alway go drunk n till so late only go back.

but i just fine n swallow an insult ,submit to humiliation.

coz he is my gor n my father..

i hope they can stop n dun sot again..

omg !!

04 APRIL 2010 10.00p.m

WTF...

today din go anywhere.

so having dinner wit father outside.

so i get ready wait father back from fishing n having dinner lo.

how i know father still go the same place.

haix..

it's okay.

can let stomach forget hungry will do.

about 8 something we reach the restoran.

we hav dinner wit father de fren.

father de fren wit his wife n his son n his son's gf.

WTF.

i really saw an alien infront of me.

y the lady who look like cheap n 'palia'

but i dun wan speak out la.

dun wan offend ppl lo.

10 mins ago.~

the meal not yet reach.

den when tat time she take out the cigarette n smoke.

walao .!

infront of her parent in-law smoking ==

dun knw respect her parent in-law de.

faint.~

after tat .

she cal me ' xiao didi, got go drunk ma?'

i say i did't....

so she say when free she bring me go..

walao..!

where she go oh!

how do i know she was work in pub.

den she say now she ady change be singer ...she so happy.

but we din feel any congratulation to her or wat.

n she say she was confidence to be singer coz she say got a litlle girl was 18 year old.

be singer there.

n she say she sing till so rude.

fast song dunno wat she sing.

if normal song she sing like recite..

wahaha..she so happy n so confidence to be singer.

i really cannot tahan her la.

but i still quiet n sit.

cant believe still got ppl has a very thick face..

dare to say like tat infront of ppl.

haiz..

she better go back n wash the face n stand infront of the mirror n see properly.

haix..

BEH TAHAN!

collage....

which collage i should choose...???

segi collage ??

HELP university collage???

TARC???

but if my choose...

i wan HELP university collage....

coz the time ...

HELP university only need 2 1/2 year ady finish diploma..

n HELP there more HIGH class...:p

n i like the enviroment there....

i m blur la....

i dun knw which collage i should enter..

confuse + blur ..

wat was happen..

wat wrong??

i take rest at home also cannot ??

me really dun knw wat i should do la...

promise le...

go work for 4 days be4 cny...

but wat wrong again???

ply comp also got problem???

until mid-night....

cannot de meh??

i din study ma...

y like tat cannot meh??

i cant sleep tat y ply comp....

now my family...

look like different le....

be4 me like tat is okay....

but now change le...

everyday hav to quarrel only 'song' de...tat daddy...

alway scold mother...

if din drunk will become like a murder...

after drunk just look so friendly..but i m scare u....

i hope tis hse can be safe n warm...

daddy everyday go drunk...

not like a family lor...

look my fren all de family...

when free...

will go out together...

sunday will go shopping or go anyway...

but daddy r different...

every sunday will go fishing ..

just know 'bla bla bla' me..

i knw u stay the good for me...

but u din say urself...

haix....forgot tis...

y on9 until mid-night got problem meh??

i really dun knw lor...

coz i din work or study ..

so i on9 until so late...

if i m working or study de....

i wont be like tat lor...

now i wan rest only....

y u all alway say tat is a reason??

take rest also a reason??

i m very sad lor....

no wonder tis will happen...

say stop working de is my mother...

so i stop...

now i rest at home...

then now say i m din work...alway at home...

==

i m not a useless ppl...

i hav work also...

now just rest at home...

if i m a useless ppl...

i wont go find job be4 spm..

after spm just start working...

no rest also..

tat all ...

all word is from my heart....

i alway respect ur all...

but din u respect me??

only force me...

haix....

enough le..

i dun wan say anymore le...

i m so moody nw...

hope the problem can settle faster...

i think after cny will be ok le...

hope u all be healthy n happy everyday...

gam dong..

在日本发生了一件千真万确的事：

有人为了装修家里，拆开了墙；

日式住宅的墙壁通?常是中间架了木板后，

两边批上泥土，其实里面是空的。

他拆墙壁的时候，发现一只?

壁虎被困在那里一根从外面钉进来的钉子钉住了那只壁虎的尾巴。

那人见状，既觉可?

怜又感好奇，他仔细看了看那根钉子，

天啊！那根钉子是十年前盖那房子的时候钉的。

? ? &nbs p; ?到底怎么回事？

那只壁虎竟然困在墙壁里活了整整十年！

黑暗中的墙壁里的十年，真?不简单。

不对呀？

他继而寻思，尾巴被钉住了，

一个步子也跨不出的这只壁虎，

到底?靠什么撑过了这十年？

他于是暂时停止了装修工程看看它到底吃了什么!

他要一探究?竟。

过了不久，

不知从哪里又钻出来一只壁虎，

嘴里含着食物...

啊！他一时愣住了， ??

这是什么样的情形啊？

为了被钉住尾巴而不能走动的壁虎，

另一只壁虎竟然在十年的岁?

月里一直不停地衔取食物喂它。

我听了以后，很感动，

真的也不去想它们之间的关系：?? 　

亲子，朋友，异性，手足....在人类的社会中随着计算机的普及，

人与人获取相关的?

信息更快速，但是人与人之间的距离是否也越来越接近呢？...

所以永远也不要放弃你?所爱的人！

single....

nw is 12.15a.m...

she break with me....

i hav to work...

no choose....

sorry for u....

if got any thing....

u can find me n ask me...

i still take u as fren....

hope u study hard.....

for ur furture.....

ur life....

hope u can find 1 boyfren tat can work n find u every minute....

below all blog already become history.....

i hope u wont get hurt.....

sick

yesterday ...

when i work ...

i m not feeling well...

from 8.00 p.m start...

n i tell my fren all...

i m not feeling well...n so cold...

so i ask them can i switch off air-con....

they say ok...

so i switch off it....

but i still feel cold....

after tat ...

i feel very very cold le...

even i switch off the air-con....

no choose...

i should continue my work...

work is work ...

haix....

sick r so 'cham' .....

better take care our body...

if sick le...really very hard ....

tis is armani....

my sis de sugar glider ^^

so cute...

i so miss miu miu oh :(